An@stasia Beaverhou§eñ

yo yo yo!
It's been maddddddd long but i was in the mood to let all 2 people who probably read this what i've been up to.
I've been CRAZY busy these last few weeks and it's really made me appreciate SLEEP. I feel bad bc i have so many things going on that I haven't had enough time to see all of my friends. I was an Orientation Leader over the summer and met a whole bunch of people that I can't figure out how I got through life without them. Orientation basically consumed my entire summer but i loved every minute of it. I had a little bit of a break in july to go home and spend time with the fam. I've also gotten really close with my brother Mike's GF and her family and so now i finally have other people to hang out with at home (APART FROM LISA). I basically haven't had a day off since august 10th. Here's the run down:
Aug 10-15 Transfer Orientation training and the Orientation itself
Aug 16 MY 21st BDAY- dont ask me how it went. i only remember throwing up.
Aug 17-22 RA Training
Aug 23-24 Freshman Orientation training
Aug 25-29 Freshman orientation
Aug 30 getting the building ready for move in
Aug 31 classes started

Not only have I been in classes all day mon, wed, and fri, but i've been working at the bookstore all day tues and thurs, as well as heading up two school organizations.I BARELY HAVE TIME TO BREATHE! but alas, i still find time to go out on thursdays and go line dancing!
But I got my first break Labor day weekend when i went home and went to a party at Kristine's apt in the city (kristine is Mikes GFs sister). PS it was on her rooftop! granted Catherine and I spent most of the time lying in the lounge chairs, it was still fun. then the next day we went to their families lake house and went on their boat and just chilled. their family is really fun.
I was on duty this weekend - which means i cant leave the building, hence the time for this update. Usually i would get my homework done when i'm on duty, but that isn't happening very well. I've basically just been playing Doodle Jump on my itouch (a loverly bday present).

PS Desperate Housewives starts in ONE WEEK. AND I also got the Margaritaville Blender for my birthday!!!!!!!!!!

Today would have been my dad's 46th birthday. It was a tough day. I figured it would be.
My school has this really beautiful mosaic wall of Jesus on the cross, and it's very secluded. I spent maybe 20 minutes sitting down crying in front of it. It was the first time I really cried since the wake. It really helped me focus on the rest of the day, being able to get all those emotions out instead of keeping it in and being depressed all day.
But I really miss him. And I'm not sure if that will ever stop.

It snowed the other day (what a shock) and it was a very diamdony/glittery snow
And it reminded me of my favorite poem, by Mary E Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

And then of course I cried again. lol.

I have re-discovered my love for McDonald's.
And have indulged in it for the past three days.

Grey's Anatomy continues to be the only reason I'm alive.
And Lisa's inability to watch it when it's new continues to slowly kill me.

Sometimes, i really hate journalism and everything about it.
My classes are fun and its cool not having real work most of the time... but when we do get work IT SUCKS. I have to write a 6-8 page paper about journalists and how they do their jobs.....

WTF

how is this even relevant to me??? i just want to tell people if they should bring an umbrella (ella ella) to work!!
and i don't even want to do that anymore. or maybe i do. idk. but i've lost all passion for life at the moment. I'm sitting desk this weekend which means i'm also on-call allllll weekend which means i can't leave the building. and this bitch from the building next to me asked me to cover her phone all day tomorrow. i hate being the only responsible person at this school. maybe its because i'm the only white guy on staff...

my schedule SUCKS ASS for next semester. mondays i have class from 3-7 and tuesdays from 3-10! i'm taking 2 ridiculously hard comm classes along with two minor classes and an elective (which i'm sure i will end up dropping of wished i did bc its on international communications).

and my step-mom sent me a huge box of marshmellows and reese's and lindor truffels (truffles?). idk. but i can't possibly eat it. i started my workout routine back up and i've lost some weight already. maybe i'll give it to my residents so they think i like them. cause i don't.

ANDDD
this fucking weather can't make up it's fucking mind!!! everyone is getting crazy sick bc it goes from 35 in the morning to fuckin 65 by one o'clock. and i just hate.

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate.

UGH!!
ITS FUCKING COLD ALREADY!
FUCK OCTOBER!

and the sun isn't even up yet, why must i be?

Current Mood: cold

So, another year, another set of characters - with some returning guest appearances, of course.

Here's the new rundown.

Ernest and Kimberly are sill very much in my life - couldn't handle it without them.

My old suitemate Mike (from westchester) is also still around. We have a class together thursday nights so i see him at least once a week. then that nigga makes me drive his lazy ass home.

Sean also still plagues my life. --- I don't think I ever introduced sean... Here is sean. He is gay. and finds humor is making my life miserable.

Jordan: we were always acquaintances - she is friends with most of my friends but this year shes an RA with me in tower 3 and we've become really close. not to mention she loves jekyll n hyde!!

Joe: also an RA, but in a different building. We met during RA training and instantly clicked after finding out we were exactly the same. aka racists. We also have a class together.

Ed: ohhhh ed. ed, ed, ed, ed, ed. Ed's a 'mo. but he wont admit it. we all about his past secret affairs and he gets super pissy whenever anyone makes a gay joke. its fun to watch, but kinda annoying after a while.

Liz: hahaha. shes so funny. mostly bc shes so dumb. but in the honors program. idk.

Anna: anna is pretty badass. but is never around.

Laura: laura just kinda comes with ed. she looks like a bird when u look directly at the front of her face.

And thats it.


My ideas of late:
I've been spending money like its nobody's business.
laptop - $782.96
ihome - $99.99
amazing illegal chair for my room - $49.99
car payments - $250 a month

but do i have a job?
of course not. that would be insane
but i get $200 a semester from RAing and that clearly makes up for everything


On a more personal level -
last week was the 6 month mark (anniversary?) of my dad passing.
i wasn't as bad as i thought i'd be.
but i still haven't gone to visit him. i feel guilty but at the same time, the thought of seeing my own name on a grave stone is just unimaginable.

and this entry is entirely too long.

a song thats been on my mind a lot lately:
Another Try - Josh Turner
its about a man whose gf walks out on him and he just lets her go bc hes emotionally unavailable and all he wants is for her to come back so he can get things right the second time around.

hahahahahahahahaha
i have mono. lmao.

im so pathetic.
last night i stayed home with my mother and watched the true hollywood story of britney spears and then went to bed at 11.
school needed to happen about 2 months ago.

"If you could be a character from any TV show, who would you be and why?"

Well, I think it's pretty clear that I would be (and kind of already am) Bree Van De Camp.
Duh.


PS. if you're ever feeling depressed, I have the perfect song for you to listen to.
It's from Alanis' new CD and it's called "not as we". the melody is very captivating and soothing.

My gym has played ABBA's Dancing Queen three days in a row.
Conspiracy?

so the shot at love finale was last night.
im so glad tila picked kristy!!!
im so sad kristy rejected her :(

it went a little something like this:

Kristy is in the limo on her way to the final elimination and shes having a nervous breakdown. shes turning beat red, her hands are shaking, and then it "hits her like a truck" IS SHE BI? does she like boys or girls? she doesnt know anymore. and she says i hope tila doesn't pick me.
so then tila has this big smile on her face when she asks kristy to take a shot at love but when kristy says no, tilas face became the angriest mother fucker on the face of this earth. i swear, her eyes almost jumped out and strangled kristy. then tila started shaking and walked away. cut to tila crying in her room saying "whats wrong with me, whats wrong with me. all i want is love. why wont anyone love me. whats wrong with me."

i must say, it was very disappointing and anticlimactic. but next week at the reunion, tila and kristy have it out!!!
cant wait bitches.

lately im really obsessed with the song HOME by Blake Shelton. its a cover from Micheal Buble but i like this one better.

Current Location: late for work

i forgot to recommend a song for the last entry - although im sure no one listens to them.
However, this song is so amazing it deserves its own entry, even if its 5 days late.

This song is for anyone who's ever been abused by their man, and is currently my ring tone.
"Gunpowder & Lead" - Miranda Lambert

The Desperate Housewives trivia application consumes my life right now.

My newest obsession right now is Tila Tequila.
Well its not so much an obsession as a lifestyle
and its not so much new as I've been watching both seasons.
But you get the point.

I'm so excited my gurl Kristy from the Y.O. is in the top 3!!
Shes goin allll theee wayyy. No way Bo is gonna win. NO WAY.
Tila came to Yonkers in last weeks episode to meet Kristy's family. In the episode they showed pictures of the tappen zee bridge and the lighthouse next to it. And i was like.... hmmm... thats tarrytown but ok. Then Kristy took Tila ice skating at the Westchester Skating Academy. Ive never been but now I'll have to go!

Ugh on a grosser note.

I joined a gym. Its not bad at all. I actually really like how big it is and there's always available machines.

However. With that being said.

I saw a penis today.

And it was old.

There are so many old men who feel the need to always be naked. I can't deal with it.

Current Music: Kiss me - Sixpence blah-di-blah

BC im too tired to bother updating about the week-old greys finale...

yada yada i hate mer-der. alex is a dickbag. izzie needs to stop taking 2 hours to get a back bone. and christina is finally happy again - in a christina sort of way, of course.

anywho.

recommended song of the week:
this is a really fun song, especially for all u teenage girls out there....
"Picture to Burn" by Taylor Swift.

ok so, where do I begin??? there are so many things running through my head running through my head all the things she said all the things she said running through my head.
Anyway.
So we finally learned the sitc with Kathryn and Dylan and i'm quite relieved. I always knew Dylan wasn't Dylan but I didnt know how she wasn't Dylan. That part was really sad.
But I'm over it.
And a good hostage situation is always an easy was to my heart. But I almost had a breakdown when I saw Bree get pulled into the house. I hate when they do that to me!

PS I'm talking about Desperate Housewives if anyone hasn't caught on. All 2 people who read this.

Next let's discuss the strangely not-boring Susan. It's no secret Susan annoys the crap out of me sometimes but I am very happy to announce that I found her quite humorous last night. Especially when Julie told her she was going to Princeton early. Lmao. OMG and MAYNARD??? hahahaha and Grisedla! too good.

Number 3 shall be Bree. ....... ehh nothing too exciting except the attempted rape by the priest. And him and Orson fighting in Church and calling her a slut! Her faces are priceless. Priceless. OH YEAH, she had some great lines, too, like "I reject your peace and I demand you stop stalking me!" and "Don't you dare throw your calligraphy skills in my face when you know I'm at a low point!" Hmm i guess there was something exciting lol.

Ok now Lynette. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! KRAZY KAYLA!!!! ohhhhh mannnnnn. Where do I start. how about at THAT CRAZY BITCH IS GONE!!!!!!!! i cant believe she burned herself with a curling iron! thats dedication. but i'm so glad tom finally stopped being a little whinny sissy bitchass and saw what kayla was doing.

Last but certainly not least is the wonderfully shallow Gabby!!! wooo! she never ceases to amaze me at how low she can sink. some memorable recaps
Carlos: Damnit Gabby enough shopping, you've maxed out all our credit cards
Gabby: Stop yelling at me. When you yell at me I get upset and when I get upset do you know what I do? I shop! So if we end up on the street, guess whose fault it is!

Carlos: Ellie is upstairs, call the cops.
Gabby: What no! Shes gonna take the money!
Carlos: You cant go up there its too dangerous!
Gabby: Not as dangerous as poverty!

But by far, the best line of the night goes to Carlos with "Im gonna go read porn... in braille."

Now that the formalities are over and done with. Can we talk about the flash foward?????
Mama DiCarlucci says she heard thats how the rest of the series is gonna be played out! everything is gonna be told through flashbacks. WHAT IS THIS, LOST??
But the more i sit here and think about what I saw, the more I become obsessed with this idea.
Heres where we stand:
Gabby: Wearing normal clothes and has two, repeat TWO, fat kids. But WHERE IS CARLOS??
Lynette: Everything is back to normal with her and tom. and the twins are hijacking cars at age 13.
Bree: A successful cook book writer?? Thats what I got from it. And Andrew is back - I'm kinda happy about that. AND SHE TOOK ORSON BACK!!
Susan: Ok. OMG.

WHO IS THAT MAN AND WHERE IS MIKE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Current Mood: excited

so i'll have a more detailed update tomorrow bc im wayyy toooo tired right now but WTF!

my jaw is STILL on the floor!
i cant be alive right now.

I've decided I'm going to start talking about tv shows in my lj. but only the ones I like. so if you like Heroes, go fuck yourself!

first and foremost: the Brothers & Sisters finale! Finally after two LONG seasons of awkward-brother-sister-sexual-tension, Justin and Rebbecca FINALLY KISSED! and in true B&S fashion... it was awkward. Kevin and Scotty got married and Saul came out and Justin humors us with the line "This is like the gayest week of my life" I lol-ed. a little. Kitty is not pregnant again. Apparently having sex 10 times a day without a condom still isn't enough to make that anorexic bitch gain weight. AND HERE WAS THE BIG FINALE! ARE YOU READY?!?!?!

REBBECCA IS NOT A WALKER AND THERE IS ANOTHER SECRET CHILD!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK WERE THESE LAST TWO SEASONS FOR THEN????

Current Mood: bouncy

the writers block question says: "who is the last person to really make you mad?"

hahahahahahahahhahaha

omg so i would have updated earlier but SHIT WENT DOWN

end of story I spent a night in the big house. they saw all 492 songs and it was either a fine for each song or a night in jail....

good news is I wasn't raped.
bad news is they totally fired me.

im so screwed for next year, i don't even know how to tell my mom -- thats what im scared of the most lol

Current Mood: okay