An@stasia Beaverhou§eñ

busy bee

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 15:15:25 GMT

yo yo yo!
It's been maddddddd long but i was in the mood to let all 2 people who probably read this what i've been up to.
I've been CRAZY busy these last few weeks and it's really made me appreciate SLEEP. I feel bad bc i have so many things going on that I haven't had enough time to see all of my friends. I was an Orientation Leader over the summer and met a whole bunch of people that I can't figure out how I got through life without them. Orientation basically consumed my entire summer but i loved every minute of it. I had a little bit of a break in july to go home and spend time with the fam. I've also gotten really close with my brother Mike's GF and her family and so now i finally have other people to hang out with at home (APART FROM LISA). I basically haven't had a day off since august 10th. Here's the run down:
Aug 10-15 Transfer Orientation training and the Orientation itself
Aug 16 MY 21st BDAY- dont ask me how it went. i only remember throwing up.
Aug 17-22 RA Training
Aug 23-24 Freshman Orientation training
Aug 25-29 Freshman orientation
Aug 30 getting the building ready for move in
Aug 31 classes started

Not only have I been in classes all day mon, wed, and fri, but i've been working at the bookstore all day tues and thurs, as well as heading up two school organizations.I BARELY HAVE TIME TO BREATHE! but alas, i still find time to go out on thursdays and go line dancing!
But I got my first break Labor day weekend when i went home and went to a party at Kristine's apt in the city (kristine is Mikes GFs sister). PS it was on her rooftop! granted Catherine and I spent most of the time lying in the lounge chairs, it was still fun. then the next day we went to their families lake house and went on their boat and just chilled. their family is really fun.
I was on duty this weekend - which means i cant leave the building, hence the time for this update. Usually i would get my homework done when i'm on duty, but that isn't happening very well. I've basically just been playing Doodle Jump on my itouch (a loverly bday present).

PS Desperate Housewives starts in ONE WEEK. AND I also got the Margaritaville Blender for my birthday!!!!!!!!!!

I am not there. I did not die.

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 03:25:33 GMT

Today would have been my dad's 46th birthday. It was a tough day. I figured it would be.
My school has this really beautiful mosaic wall of Jesus on the cross, and it's very secluded. I spent maybe 20 minutes sitting down crying in front of it. It was the first time I really cried since the wake. It really helped me focus on the rest of the day, being able to get all those emotions out instead of keeping it in and being depressed all day.
But I really miss him. And I'm not sure if that will ever stop.

It snowed the other day (what a shock) and it was a very diamdony/glittery snow
And it reminded me of my favorite poem, by Mary E Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

And then of course I cried again. lol.

gluttony

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 03:01:27 GMT

I have re-discovered my love for McDonald's.
And have indulged in it for the past three days.

make up your mind denny!

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 03:17:35 GMT

Grey's Anatomy continues to be the only reason I'm alive.
And Lisa's inability to watch it when it's new continues to slowly kill me.

Warning: The contents of this entry are extremely negative and highly passive agressive

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 22:07:19 GMT

Sometimes, i really hate journalism and everything about it.
My classes are fun and its cool not having real work most of the time... but when we do get work IT SUCKS. I have to write a 6-8 page paper about journalists and how they do their jobs.....

WTF

how is this even relevant to me??? i just want to tell people if they should bring an umbrella (ella ella) to work!!
and i don't even want to do that anymore. or maybe i do. idk. but i've lost all passion for life at the moment. I'm sitting desk this weekend which means i'm also on-call allllll weekend which means i can't leave the building. and this bitch from the building next to me asked me to cover her phone all day tomorrow. i hate being the only responsible person at this school. maybe its because i'm the only white guy on staff...

my schedule SUCKS ASS for next semester. mondays i have class from 3-7 and tuesdays from 3-10! i'm taking 2 ridiculously hard comm classes along with two minor classes and an elective (which i'm sure i will end up dropping of wished i did bc its on international communications).

and my step-mom sent me a huge box of marshmellows and reese's and lindor truffels (truffles?). idk. but i can't possibly eat it. i started my workout routine back up and i've lost some weight already. maybe i'll give it to my residents so they think i like them. cause i don't.

ANDDD
this fucking weather can't make up it's fucking mind!!! everyone is getting crazy sick bc it goes from 35 in the morning to fuckin 65 by one o'clock. and i just hate.

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate.

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 11:38:30 GMT

UGH!!
ITS FUCKING COLD ALREADY!
FUCK OCTOBER!

and the sun isn't even up yet, why must i be?

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 15:28:24 GMT

So, another year, another set of characters - with some returning guest appearances, of course.

Here's the new rundown.

Ernest and Kimberly are sill very much in my life - couldn't handle it without them.

My old suitemate Mike (from westchester) is also still around. We have a class together thursday nights so i see him at least once a week. then that nigga makes me drive his lazy ass home.

Sean also still plagues my life. --- I don't think I ever introduced sean... Here is sean. He is gay. and finds humor is making my life miserable.

Jordan: we were always acquaintances - she is friends with most of my friends but this year shes an RA with me in tower 3 and we've become really close. not to mention she loves jekyll n hyde!!

Joe: also an RA, but in a different building. We met during RA training and instantly clicked after finding out we were exactly the same. aka racists. We also have a class together.

Ed: ohhhh ed. ed, ed, ed, ed, ed. Ed's a 'mo. but he wont admit it. we all about his past secret affairs and he gets super pissy whenever anyone makes a gay joke. its fun to watch, but kinda annoying after a while.

Liz: hahaha. shes so funny. mostly bc shes so dumb. but in the honors program. idk.

Anna: anna is pretty badass. but is never around.

Laura: laura just kinda comes with ed. she looks like a bird when u look directly at the front of her face.

And thats it.

My ideas of late:
I've been spending money like its nobody's business.
laptop - $782.96
ihome - $99.99
amazing illegal chair for my room - $49.99
car payments - $250 a month

but do i have a job?
of course not. that would be insane
but i get $200 a semester from RAing and that clearly makes up for everything

On a more personal level -
last week was the 6 month mark (anniversary?) of my dad passing.
i wasn't as bad as i thought i'd be.
but i still haven't gone to visit him. i feel guilty but at the same time, the thought of seeing my own name on a grave stone is just unimaginable.

and this entry is entirely too long.

a song thats been on my mind a lot lately:
Another Try - Josh Turner
its about a man whose gf walks out on him and he just lets her go bc hes emotionally unavailable and all he wants is for her to come back so he can get things right the second time around.

a very merry unbirthday

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 14:14:00 GMT

hahahahahahahahaha
i have mono. lmao.

i agree, very shallow and pedantic

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 17:21:04 GMT

im so pathetic.
last night i stayed home with my mother and watched the true hollywood story of britney spears and then went to bed at 11.
school needed to happen about 2 months ago.

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 13:06:56 GMT

"If you could be a character from any TV show, who would you be and why?"

Well, I think it's pretty clear that I would be (and kind of already am) Bree Van De Camp.
Duh.

PS. if you're ever feeling depressed, I have the perfect song for you to listen to.
It's from Alanis' new CD and it's called "not as we". the melody is very captivating and soothing.

you can jive

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 21:48:20 GMT

My gym has played ABBA's Dancing Queen three days in a row.
Conspiracy?

women are just confused pathetic creatures

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 13:21:15 GMT

so the shot at love finale was last night.
im so glad tila picked kristy!!!
im so sad kristy rejected her :(

it went a little something like this:

Kristy is in the limo on her way to the final elimination and shes having a nervous breakdown. shes turning beat red, her hands are shaking, and then it "hits her like a truck" IS SHE BI? does she like boys or girls? she doesnt know anymore. and she says i hope tila doesn't pick me.
so then tila has this big smile on her face when she asks kristy to take a shot at love but when kristy says no, tilas face became the angriest mother fucker on the face of this earth. i swear, her eyes almost jumped out and strangled kristy. then tila started shaking and walked away. cut to tila crying in her room saying "whats wrong with me, whats wrong with me. all i want is love. why wont anyone love me. whats wrong with me."

i must say, it was very disappointing and anticlimactic. but next week at the reunion, tila and kristy have it out!!!
cant wait bitches.

lately im really obsessed with the song HOME by Blake Shelton. its a cover from Micheal Buble but i like this one better.

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 13:10:10 GMT

i forgot to recommend a song for the last entry - although im sure no one listens to them.
However, this song is so amazing it deserves its own entry, even if its 5 days late.

This song is for anyone who's ever been abused by their man, and is currently my ring tone.
"Gunpowder & Lead" - Miranda Lambert

It was supposed to be a beautiful day, and then the winds came and changed everything

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 20:08:08 GMT

The Desperate Housewives trivia application consumes my life right now.

My newest obsession right now is Tila Tequila.
Well its not so much an obsession as a lifestyle
and its not so much new as I've been watching both seasons.
But you get the point.

I'm so excited my gurl Kristy from the Y.O. is in the top 3!!
Shes goin allll theee wayyy. No way Bo is gonna win. NO WAY.
Tila came to Yonkers in last weeks episode to meet Kristy's family. In the episode they showed pictures of the tappen zee bridge and the lighthouse next to it. And i was like.... hmmm... thats tarrytown but ok. Then Kristy took Tila ice skating at the Westchester Skating Academy. Ive never been but now I'll have to go!

Ugh on a grosser note.

I joined a gym. Its not bad at all. I actually really like how big it is and there's always available machines.

However. With that being said.

I saw a penis today.

And it was old.

There are so many old men who feel the need to always be naked. I can't deal with it.

where is the passion?

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 01:17:03 GMT

BC im too tired to bother updating about the week-old greys finale...

yada yada i hate mer-der. alex is a dickbag. izzie needs to stop taking 2 hours to get a back bone. and christina is finally happy again - in a christina sort of way, of course.

anywho.

recommended song of the week:
this is a really fun song, especially for all u teenage girls out there....
"Picture to Burn" by Taylor Swift.

NO DESPERATE WAY!

Mon, 19 May 2008 21:51:48 GMT

ok so, where do I begin??? there are so many things running through my head running through my head all the things she said all the things she said running through my head.
Anyway.
So we finally learned the sitc with Kathryn and Dylan and i'm quite relieved. I always knew Dylan wasn't Dylan but I didnt know how she wasn't Dylan. That part was really sad.
But I'm over it.
And a good hostage situation is always an easy was to my heart. But I almost had a breakdown when I saw Bree get pulled into the house. I hate when they do that to me!

PS I'm talking about Desperate Housewives if anyone hasn't caught on. All 2 people who read this.

Next let's discuss the strangely not-boring Susan. It's no secret Susan annoys the crap out of me sometimes but I am very happy to announce that I found her quite humorous last night. Especially when Julie told her she was going to Princeton early. Lmao. OMG and MAYNARD??? hahahaha and Grisedla! too good.

Number 3 shall be Bree. ....... ehh nothing too exciting except the attempted rape by the priest. And him and Orson fighting in Church and calling her a slut! Her faces are priceless. Priceless. OH YEAH, she had some great lines, too, like "I reject your peace and I demand you stop stalking me!" and "Don't you dare throw your calligraphy skills in my face when you know I'm at a low point!" Hmm i guess there was something exciting lol.

Ok now Lynette. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! KRAZY KAYLA!!!! ohhhhh mannnnnn. Where do I start. how about at THAT CRAZY BITCH IS GONE!!!!!!!! i cant believe she burned herself with a curling iron! thats dedication. but i'm so glad tom finally stopped being a little whinny sissy bitchass and saw what kayla was doing.

Last but certainly not least is the wonderfully shallow Gabby!!! wooo! she never ceases to amaze me at how low she can sink. some memorable recaps
Carlos: Damnit Gabby enough shopping, you've maxed out all our credit cards
Gabby: Stop yelling at me. When you yell at me I get upset and when I get upset do you know what I do? I shop! So if we end up on the street, guess whose fault it is!

Carlos: Ellie is upstairs, call the cops.
Gabby: What no! Shes gonna take the money!
Carlos: You cant go up there its too dangerous!
Gabby: Not as dangerous as poverty!

But by far, the best line of the night goes to Carlos with "Im gonna go read porn... in braille."

Now that the formalities are over and done with. Can we talk about the flash foward?????
Mama DiCarlucci says she heard thats how the rest of the series is gonna be played out! everything is gonna be told through flashbacks. WHAT IS THIS, LOST??
But the more i sit here and think about what I saw, the more I become obsessed with this idea.
Heres where we stand:
Gabby: Wearing normal clothes and has two, repeat TWO, fat kids. But WHERE IS CARLOS??
Lynette: Everything is back to normal with her and tom. and the twins are hijacking cars at age 13.
Bree: A successful cook book writer?? Thats what I got from it. And Andrew is back - I'm kinda happy about that. AND SHE TOOK ORSON BACK!!
Susan: Ok. OMG.

WHO IS THAT MAN AND WHERE IS MIKE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

i cant handle it.

A little of my expert opinion. I think there is a direct correlation between Mike's disappearance and Orson's return. Hmm??? Is that good or what?

Side note - Edie is still not in the picture. Is she gone forever?

I am also starting a little thing where I recommend songs, mostly country, because I'm bored.
Recommended song of the week:
It is a cover song done by the greatest singer EVER.
I'll Stand By You - Carrie Underwood.

Find it. DL it. Love it.

FIVE YEARS LATER????

Mon, 19 May 2008 03:31:21 GMT

so i'll have a more detailed update tomorrow bc im wayyy toooo tired right now but WTF!

my jaw is STILL on the floor!
i cant be alive right now.

Lets take some ABC!

Tue, 13 May 2008 05:00:05 GMT

I've decided I'm going to start talking about tv shows in my lj. but only the ones I like. so if you like Heroes, go fuck yourself!

first and foremost: the Brothers & Sisters finale! Finally after two LONG seasons of awkward-brother-sister-sexual-tension, Justin and Rebbecca FINALLY KISSED! and in true B&S fashion... it was awkward. Kevin and Scotty got married and Saul came out and Justin humors us with the line "This is like the gayest week of my life" I lol-ed. a little. Kitty is not pregnant again. Apparently having sex 10 times a day without a condom still isn't enough to make that anorexic bitch gain weight. AND HERE WAS THE BIG FINALE! ARE YOU READY?!?!?!

REBBECCA IS NOT A WALKER AND THERE IS ANOTHER SECRET CHILD!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK WERE THESE LAST TWO SEASONS FOR THEN????

Onto Greys: Just utter perfection. And Sandra Oh cannot sing. It was great to see Addison again yada yada. Whats going on with Private Practice anyway???

ok.

best for last.

DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES!!!
where do i start???
Julie found out that Orson ran over Mike and she told mike and then mike told susan and bc susan is preggers shes all emotional and had another breakdown like she did when mike left her in season 2 and then bree kicked out orson and then orson slept over edies and then edie made out with orson and bree saw it so bree told some potential new neighbors about edies reputation and they ran away and then bree filed for divorce from orson and custody of benjamin but orson wants him so orson WROTE OUT THE WHOLE STORY and then edie found it and BLACKMAILED bree into doing whatever she said and then bree decided she couldnt live like that so she told susan lynette and gabby and they all confronted edie and told her that she was invisible to them and that she was to never speak to them again and then edie pulled the "im so sorry i dont know how to deal with people so i make them hate me" card and the girls just walked away and didnt respond. WHEW!
ALSO: Lynettes evil step daughter kayla is a sadistic whore who told the twins to set the fire to Ricks restaurant and then when they told lynette kayla told them if they jumped off the roof with an umbrella they could fly and so preston tried it and broke his arm and kayla just smiled as they drove to the hospital so lynette took kayla to a therapist and kalya said if she has to talk to the shrink then shes gonna tell him the twins set the fire so lynette backed down but then when they were shopping kayla was bossing lynette around being the spoiled bitch that she is and when she didnt get what she wanted she said "if i made that idiot preston jump off the roof, imagine what i could do to penny" AND LYNNETE SLAPPED THAT BITCH!!!! I WAS SO RELIEVED . I was never happier with the show in my life. (sorry, i tried to make it one sentence but it couldnt be done)
SO NOW: Tom is being the big bitch that he is and all like "blah blah shes a kid and you hit her and you dont love her bc shes not yours" - ps i hope he dies along with kayla. and EDIE LEFT!!! SHES GONE!!! IS SHE COMING BACK?!?!?! IDK and IDC! but i hope shes off for good. but i doubt it.

ok so next week is the TWO-HOUR season final of DHW so make sure ya'll watch and expect another update!!!!

PS
If you had to pick a time period to live in, when would it be and why?
It would absolutely have to be the 20s because of the awesome music and dancing. and not to mention there were no black people.

PSS
I just saw Prom Night with Ellen and im super freaked out. it was so good and scary and bad at the same time. go see it. but its like only playing at New Roc -- which sucks.

Fri, 02 May 2008 17:30:17 GMT

the writers block question says: "who is the last person to really make you mad?"

hahahahahahahahhahaha

changed man

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 01:22:04 GMT

omg so i would have updated earlier but SHIT WENT DOWN

end of story I spent a night in the big house. they saw all 492 songs and it was either a fine for each song or a night in jail....

good news is I wasn't raped.
bad news is they totally fired me.

im so screwed for next year, i don't even know how to tell my mom -- thats what im scared of the most lol

i hope they send me where ever martha stuart was

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 23:08:20 GMT

hahaha i got an email from the school saying i was caught downloading music!

i was like, 500 songs later!! lol but no seriously they'll probably try to fire me bc 1. im white and 2. they didnt want to hire me in the first place so this will be perfect for them.

i'll keep everyone posted.

ps im more worried than i come across in this entry.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 22:29:44 GMT

im on duty again.
and its nice out again.

ughh

but i guess its good bc it gives me 48 hours to catch up on all my work.

financial aid fucked up my life yesterday and put a hold on my account just as i was trying to register for classes next semester. somehow in their heads they tried to charge me for housing... when im an RA... and RAs get free housing and meal plans... idk. but my mom yelled at them for an hour and its fixed.
so now i have 4 classes on mondays and wednesdays and 1 class on tues/thurs. i need to find one more tues/thurs class so my days arent wasted with just one class.

OMG so i just remembered lol. i went to the health center today bc im have a sore throat for a week. and as soon as i left my room to head over i got the hic-ups!!! WTF. i dont even remember the last time that happened. Anyway, i digress. when i got in with the nurse she had to do a throat culture. so she goes "you're gonna think im crazy but when i ask you 'what swims in the sea' you say 'fish', this will make your hic-ups go away" AND O.M.G. IT DID!! like u dont even know. i was baffled!!

stole some new icons from people on lj lol. bitches.

the writer block question asked me if i've ever experienced road rage...
clearly they dont live in a city. i've had consistant road rage since the day i started driving lol.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 00:55:25 GMT

i kno i sometimes complain when people complain instead of talk about whats going on in their lives, but i'm having a mental breakdown and i need to vent.

i missed 2 weeks of school last month, for obvious reasons, and i'm having such trouble catching up. i take six classes and it's becoming a bit of a bother. i thought taking my health class pass/fail would alleviate some of the pressure but then i realized that i got a 70 on the first test and i missed the second and all the lectures for it so i have to somehow pull a passing grade out of my ass. and i've never taken health before (way to go stepinac!).

I missed so much work in my english class, the rough drafts for our final research paper were due a week ago and i just found my 6th out of 6 resources and only have 2 out of 8 pages written. not to mention all the side works that need to be accompanied with it. like conducting an interview and survey, a process journal, an annotated bibliography (HATE THOSE BITCHES), and final timed essay. fuckin hate english.

in my speech class we are doing 60-minute group presentations. YES. you heard correctly. AN HOUR. i dont even wanna talk about the work i have to do.

in Weather Forecasting, i have to do 3 versions of the same forecast for my final project. the first two are due in 2 days. haven't. even. started.

I'm all caught up in my Media Writing but we have our final to do whenever we want. and we have to take 3 stories and write three different versions for each of them - a print, broadcast, and PR version = 9 stories!! FOR NO REASON! not to mention we are also doing a group broadcast (and im doing the weather, of course. idky im complaining. i know its great experience but i'm just lazy)

Lucky i took the test i missed in my Visual Comm class so i have nothing to do in that class.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i feel better now.
it probably doesnt seem like a lot of work but i just feel like once i'm behind on work it's impossible to catch up bc there's always something else to do. but i'm about to be a junior in college (wow) what else should i be expecting. FUCK YOU STEPINAC AND YOUR UNREALISTIC PREPARATIONS FOR PUTTING US INTO THE REAL WORLD.

I guess it's a good thing that im on duty this weekend. it means i cant leave the building friday, saturday, or sunday so i have no choice but to do work.

question mark question mark head tilt

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 03:31:48 GMT

so holly???
really???
lisa and i agree america made the wrong choice, as they so often do - i.e. ruben, fantasia, and every other american idol/top model winner (except for carrie, of course)

but cant wait for season 2!!
OR EVEN MORE SO, SEASON 3 OF WORKOUT!!!!! WOOOOOO!!! lol

thank god for bravo

The secret lives of soccer mom's

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 03:17:08 GMT

So let's get this over and done with, as i'm sure the word somehow got around to half of you.

My dad passed away last weekend. The cancer didn't kill him. The starvation did. He lost over 60 pound in the last two months and finally decided it was time. My brother said as he was helping my dad into bed he started waving goodbye.
Please don't ask me how i'm doing - i cannot bare to answer that ridiculous question once more.

Lately I've noticed that livejournal is filled with nothing but over-exaggerated and pathetic attempts at trying to make your lives sound depressing and impossible.
I think i win this time.

So stop complaining how everything reminds you of him, or how you wish you could have been a better friend, or craving the attention no one cares enough to give you and just cut yourselves already and get it over with. Because the truth is that no one cares about your life. Even if they say "let me know if there's anything i can do", it's all about the pleasantries, no one likes helping others unless it's convenient for them. I learned that the hard way.